Sunday, August 25, 2013

Random Act Of Kindness Day Preperation.

Tomorrow is a nerve racking day. It'll be one month since we met our daughter, and the news that she would not be coming home the way we had planned.

Was I really pregnant? Did that happen?? REALLY HAPPEN? Yup. I'm at that point now. The fantom kicks are gone, and with it the cries that she isn't there making them. My stomach is still not flat, but it's not the resemblence of a 6 month pregnant womans either. I'm no longer walking through the house to find bits and pieces of newborn items.. they are all put away... and the things I feared that would break me down.. don't. Sometimes, I laugh at myself. What was I expecting, anways? Not this. Not for a month to go by, and for me to be at this point... here... writing down numorous names of babys who have joined or were waiting for Sophia all this time... in hopes of sharing their stories, and hers, and brightening someones day along the way.

Tomorrow, my husband goes back to work. My mom is still here, so that is comforting.. but it still seems crazy that our lives have to just.. go on. I'm fearful for his first week back... thankfully, labor day is this weekend, so its a 4 day week, followed by a 4 day weekend, followed by a 4 day week. I plan on going into his work with her photos this week.. they threw us a surprise baby shower just a week before we lost her, and I know they will want to see her, hear her story, and he won't be up for sharing. I could be wrong.. but I just want to help him through it.

Tomorow is also Random Act of Kindness day. Over 1,000 people have signed up to do a random act, including a young girl, turning 9, doing 9 days of kindness for her birthday inspired by Sophia. ((Can i just say how much my heart SWELLS in proudness... fo my daughter.. for her.. for her mom.. for the thousands who are doing this?!?!)) This is literally the one thing I've gripped onto in the begining.. if her life could just touch ONE person... and shes touched THOUSANDS. SO worth it. I wish she was here.. but this.. this is gods work.

My mom crocheted baby hats for the hospital... I'm going into the same area she was born, and I'm really excited to give some of the ladies hugs and encouragment.

I finally decided on my RAK. I'm writing my blog and Sophia's info, as well as a child who was waiting for her in heaven or lost recently and is now with her, on a tag... as I find RAK's to do throughout my day.. I will give them the tag, and encourage them to pass it on. I'm hoping this will help reach many people, and honor the babies who now keep Sophia company.

I'm too excited to hear about all the RAK's that everyone is doing in her honor! I'm hoping to collect stories/photos for her scrapbook, so please email me them at KristinamSeymour@gmail.com!

**A bit of random** Today I realized why clothes don't break me down, as I thought they would... I keep dreaming of Sophia... wearing the prettiest of white lace dresses, with gold ribbon, and a floral headband. I realize that now... after this... nothing here on earth will ever be good enough for my Sophia. I also like to think she has the most amazing wardrobe.. but i realize she might never need to change clothes up there... but maybe she does. Love her!

Well. Vlogs are pretty awesome.. except when your phone/camera/computer all hate you :( Wish me luck at that tonight!

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