Letter's to Soph

Dear Sophia,

Baby girl, I can’t believe that you are already 9 weeks old. I bet your trying to roll over up there, and giving your caretakers a good laugh with your smiles. There is so much I want to tell you, but I know you already know.

Do you know how much you’ve changed my life? My purpose? I can never ever thank you enough.

I miss you. I miss you every day, and every tear I shed… please know they are sad you’re not here.. but so happy that you blessed us with nine beautiful months of your life with us, in me.

Do you know how perfect you were? You were everything we wanted in a baby girl. You know how I tell your brothers to stop growing? I’m so glad you get to grow up in heaven! I’m so proud of you, and how amazing you are to have had God tell you that you didn’t need this Earths pain at all. I love you so.

I wonder what Earth looks like to you. I bet we are a crazy mess down here, huh? We are trying every day to be better people Soph. I know you know that, but please help us any way you’re allowed.

Daddy misses you so much. We wanted you to be here with us baby girl, please know that. We really wanted our family to grow on Earth, but we are so thankful it’s growing in heaven too! Some mommy’s don’t know what it’s like to have an angel in heaven. Mommy has 6 of you watching over us, and we love you all so much. I hope you have fun with your sister and brothers!

We are so in Love with your spirit. You’re the sweetest, gentlest little thing. I’m so glad you are my baby.

Mommy and Daddy have decided that we are going to let God control where and how big our family grows. You made us realize how special our Angels are, and how fragile our Earthly children are.. and how WORTH IT you all are. I hope you know we can never replace you here on Earth… we just want to give you as many siblings as we can. I do hope to give you a baby sister… we might even adopt one! You, Adalyn, and the other little girls we have can play dress up in heaven. I’m sure you have wonderful things to dress up in up there!

We pray for you every night baby. I know there’s nothing you need, but we still pray you have everything. I pray you know us and our love for you… how hard mommy fought to keep you inside her as long as possible.. I’m sorry it didn’t work the way I wanted it too, but I’m so happy you never had to endure pain my love.

Give God a big hug for me, and tell him thank you. Thank you for allowing me to see you… feel you.. and know your heart.

I love you so much baby girl.

Love, Mommy.